In His Arms

A friend of mine encouraged me to start blogging again.

Well ... Here I go ....

In His Arms
03.29.17
The past few months have not been easy.  I have been so wrapped up in my dads health.  Sad about the thought of loosing him.  One day I will, that's just the reality, but I am not ready.  What a relief to receive news yesterday that his cancer isn't as bad as they thought.  It is not in his bones and it is very treatable!  We aren't out of the woods but we are in a clearing and it is beautiful!

Even in the midst of my valley.  The darkness.  Uncertainty.  I was continually turning to God.  I had trouble 'feeling' Him.  Hearing.  Understanding.  But I knew that I needed to continue to turn to Him, lean on Him, talk to Him, and trust His plan what ever it may be.  It wasn't easy and there were days I was going through the motions.  But I felt it would be better to go through the motions rather than stop all together.

I am so glad I did!

Even though I felt like I wasn't hearing Him or understanding Him.  Now that I am in a clearing, I realize that I was hearing and understanding.  He is and was, in control, had it all figured out, and knew exactly where He wanted us to be and go.  I never lost sight of the fact that He wants us to plant a church.  I just didn't understand how that would work with my dad and cancer.  I see now that I was able to learn a lot and I know that these lessons will be applied later in my journey.  In many ways even.

Even in the valley I have learned to trust, lean, and walk with God.  Even if I feel like He's not there.  He IS there.  He literally was carrying me though!  There was one set of footprints.  And He was walking a straight path, while I was securely in His arms!

Hard Lessons ... AGAIN

The first two years of homeschooling with Jaxon where very hard.  First year, we are getting used to each other and how we work.  The second year I was working hard to adjust my {very structured} teaching/learning style into a more creative/active learning style for Jax. By the end of the year I was doing pretty well and we seemed to be in a groove!  

Then begins the third year.  Before school even started I found out I had Primary Hyperaldoseronism.  This began a journey of medications which made me feel ill and then meds that made me psychotic.  So, I fell back into {MY} ways of doing school.  {sad}

On December 9th I had surgery to remove the offending adrenal glad.  And after nearly two months of recovery and getting back on my feet.  I had to remember the hard learned lesson of year two.  Get creative again!  {Oyi}. I wish I could learn something once and get it and not have to relearn it again and again.  

So, today I began to embrace that creativity again.  I sent Jax on missions to find his assignments with clues.  Doing this turned an over an hour long lesson (in past experiences) into less then 30min to complete from start to finish!  And!  He did all of the reading and writing on his own!!!

It isn't easy for me - but it sure makes the day much better and Jax is happier! 

 

  

I am so thankful for the example of a patient, loving, and gentle Father to point me in the right direction parenting our kids!